Texts of the interactive video installation
The weather is gorgeous here you know
The light, so unique, eases my sadness
The prospect of the sea, beyond the disfigured shore,
carries me far and away
I could not live elsewhere
I thought about this for months
Yesterday I didn’t think of it anymore
Now I do not fear any longer. I wait
I no longer keep track of the days, of the hours
Today I love you
I only think of the you that moves me, overwhelms me
Yesterday I was a drifting soul
rehearsing the joyful scene of our meeting,
the one that would have brought us together with conviction
How much longer will I have to wait?
I cannot stop myself from thinking about it
I do it secretly, to protect myself
To protect us
This time, I hesitate to talk about it
What if it weren’t the right time?
Today is no day for heroism
How many are we in this solitude?
If only you could see the trace of light
How it enfolds a borderless cloud
Its incandescent contours blurred
as it blends in with other clouds
I hear the sound of the rough sea
I see the soldier, in position since morning
I see him looking at the sea
He has no other choice but to watch the waves
Awaiting nothing, but in charge of guarding the horizon
The enemy will come perhaps
The enemy is there
2. Outside, the buildings, hundreds of them,
bathed in pink light
surround the calm sea
I cannot stop myself from thinking about it
Yesterday all seemed so peaceful
He, she, have just died, last week, a month ago, tomorrow
They haunt us
Every step, every gesture counts. No more heedlessness
I see the unsolvable, the inscrutable
Every act is crucial to a future I may not know
I dream sometimes of dying a martyr, an eternal heroine
How many are we in this solitude?
It took us years to regain some form of peacefulness
Today we understand
The war was not over, we just did not know it
How much longer will I have to wait?
Waiting that is no longer waiting
Since time has ceased to pass
I don’t keep track of the days, of the hours, anymore
I could tell you the hours tick away terribly slowly
I could also tell you they just fly by
I cannot remember what I was doing before it all began
A sense of frailty overcomes me
I do not want to go on
I am afraid of killing. I crave it. I shudder
The city is deserted
Few noises interrupt this alien calm
Everything becomes possible and nothing too
I will not leave
3. I cannot remember what I was doing before it all began
I do not fear anymore. I wait
I recall images of those torn, battered figures
I insert my face, my body in their place
Am I wounded or dead? No, wounded
I scream. I do not want to have both my legs amputated
I howl, I cry. Nothing to be done. They must amputate
He had no face left to cry, the bomb beheaded him
I insert my body in his place. I die
and then, the explosion
I only faint in this version, I do not die
I recall the bodies
The fragments of bodies strewn around me
I relive thousands of times this instant of rupture
that plunges me into the void
I cannot feel anymore, the pain is pure
There must be pieces of my body missing
Pieces of my being surely
I do not recognize anyone
Later I am told and it comes back to me
You next to me, motionless, dead
It was your body I saw
How can I forget you?
I want to
I am ready to destroy everything, even you
What if it weren’t the right time?
I do not believe in eternity anymore
I do not want to go on
You slip away. I overflow in your presence
We are the same
I will never live here again
I will not love you anymore